Hello everyone. It has been quite a long time since I’ve written and its been quite a bittersweet college experience so far. So during the year I really limited myself to a smaller group of friends, and being friends with all girls obviously comes with DRAMA.
And I’ve had enough of it. I had friend but she was just not very nicey nice to me because I did things that frustrated her, simple things like I noticed something after she had made a statement like oh that tree is pretty, and I would say the same thing and she would get frustrated. How dumb does that sound? Am I not allowed to make my own statements even if someone just said it five seconds ago? Now I understand that I can be frustrating at times but my intentions are good. There are so many better ways to handle me than by yelling at me and embarrassing me in front of big groups of people, and people I don’t know. It’s taken me a while to realize what good friends are, and I’m still seeking to understand what that is but I do know what it is NOT. It’s funny because a friend pointed out to me that this girl tends to go in cycles with her friends first it was this girl K. then it was me and now its my friend T. since all the drama settled things have been awkward and I think the relationship is going in a direction that is just no longer conducive to me being happy. So I don’t know where things are going but I really have just kinda let go. There’s still feelings inside of me about what has happened and I still need time to get over it but for now I think I just need to….breathe.
