Wes and Colleen: BFFs
I have stuff to do almost every hour of every day. We work hard and play hard and there’s no better place to do that than Texas. Number One party school, but still well ranked academically, with the #3 school for hottest girls, and AMAZING athletics, with great weather to boot!
This past week I was cast in a show called Emergency Prom, I had a date dash on a Wednesday night, I went to the lake to go swimming, saw my best friend Wes who’s at school in California, realized Ive lost weight, saw my best friend Maddi who’s at school at Baylor, and now I’m off to a day party that benefits the red cross before I go sit in my friend’s private box to watch the baseball game tonight. I make time to study during all this yes, and I’m looking at mostly A’s with maybe 1 B in there.
Side note: Something I’ve been a little concerned about and I need to write down so I can organize my thoughts.
If you can’t tell, I’m in a great mood today. I know I might be suffering from Med Student Syndrome, but while studying disorders in my Psych class, we looked at this one type of depression called Seasonal Afflicted Disorder. Days with lack of sunlight or the winter months really affect someone with SAD in a negative way, more so than just the “winter blues” and I really think I might have this. My mood exponentially becomes better during summer, spring and fall. I have suffered from several near mental breakdowns where it was awful weather, I was alone with myself for several hours on end and I couldn’t do anything but lie in the fetal position on my floor in an almost inescapable mood of solitary dispair. Reminding me of this quote from Walden, “The mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation.” I think being in college is what made me notice this because at home I live in a house of 6 people, I always had school activities going on and I was NEVER alone. Now, if I could feel it coming on, I’d call a friend or go to my next door neighbors room and just sit in there with them so I’m not alone. I had no motivation to do anything, even pick out a movie to watch or a book to read. Now that the sun is back full blast and the weather is fine, I feel happy even days where things aren’t going my way. It’s weird, and it makes me happy that it was pretty much summer here until December and it was back to being mostly good weather by February with a couple of chilly weeks in March, before returning to heaven by April. This school is really great for this, I think. If in fact it is something I have and I’m not just translating my bad days to this source so I can explain it away. Who knows. I’m so skeptical about most diseases and disorders even though I have a million friends with problems and I just read 2 chapters and had 6 lectures on psychological and personality disorders.
ANYWAY, recap. It’s May, I’m almost home and life is good. Oh! And I got a job yesterday working at a country club this summer. So yay!
